As of late I’ve been reluctant to write anything, because it seems as if every time I think about penning something on paper a tragedy occurs in this country. I recently went to see a good friend of mine and we were discussing what it’s like to be a Black woman in the 21st century and needless to say: THINGS HAVE NOT CHANGED THAT MUCH!
I gasped at some of the things that she told me that she has went through with her supervisor. From the looks of it, she felt the same about some of the things that I shared with her about my own experiences with some folks I care not to name. Once I walked away from her office I thought about where we are in the world today, and it seems to me that it’s all about being a celebrity. I can’t even describe a feminist to anyone, because I’m trying to figure out if they exist today.
Have we forgotten the fundamentals of life, and morals and values that Plato discussed in The Republic? I’m sure many folks have not read his genius if they have not attended college — it’s free at the library if you want to check it out. I wish I could have been a fly on the wall when he talked to Socrates; I could have given them both a piece of my mind. I’m a 70s baby, born into Hip Hop, and still wishing that somehow we could have did something different that would have lasted much longer than just the music. Yep, it’s that bad. I think that Black women could have done a lot more and still can if we step up to the plate. Hip Hop is no longer what I remember and neither is society. What is the 411, which was so eloquently put by Mary J. Blige back in the day?!? The world has gone mad and I want to know where Mark Twain is when you really need him.
I’ve seen so much since the beginning of 2013 (we are not even at the halfway mark yet). My car was broken into on January 1st, a lot of precious heirlooms were stolen, my radio was taken, and windows were busted out and I just don’t understand why the world hates itself so much. I won’t chalk this piece up to the Black woman syndrome — I don’t think I have ever had the pleasure of being a part of that mantra. I’m not a victim. However, I’ve had to stop in my tracks in the past few weeks and just let some shyt go. I even went so far as to do a case study by relinquishing my rein on social media outlets to actually enjoy my weekends. All of that timeline ish can get to you, and I really don’t give a damn about folks and their relationship status and if they ate chicken or vegetarian tacos for dinner — it has really gotten out of control in my opinion. So, I say in all honesty that I’m human just like you.
I guess this is more personal than most journalists will write on a page in one day. I find it gratifying that I can let all of this out. I commend myself for being honest and raw at the same time. I want a lot. I want to change a lot in this world. However, it is a lot going on that I still don’t understand and I believe the best way to do this is by changing me, continuously evolving, and stepping outside of my comfort zone and striving for something greater than I ever could have imagined. I consider myself to be in a stage of enlightenment and seeing things for what they are now. I can’t deal with mediocrity anymore — my patience has run out with all the madness with regard to small-minded people and ideals.
When Mary J. Blige put out the album, What’s The 411, I was in the 9th grade. I woke up every morning and blasted her music. She talked about real love, real happiness, real pain, and today it seems that all of what she talked about is now on reality television with a twist: It costs to have it today. I won’t give up on what I know is real and what GOD stated that I could have all along. I ain’t trying to take you to church either; I just want people to understand that it is time to go back to the fundamentals of life. Technology will have you thinking that you are something that you are not if you play with it long enough. I have real feelings, real emotions, wants, and needs… Don’t you?
As I end this piece, I think back when my grandmother was alive and how we used to talk about life in general and how it is a beautiful gift to experience. Yet it seems, the world is full of people who are lost searching for something outside of themselves in the present. I pray that we all can get back to that place of wholeness within our inner beings and let our true light shine. Tomorrow is not promised; if nothing else… I know this is truth.